Thoughts at 2am
01: Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
This is going to be long but ive been with Zach for almost 4 years and i love him to death but during a difficult
time i turned to my ex Michael and ended up falling in love with him again and now im torn between the two
02: Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
id like to have a degree or two and be in Germany
03: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Just try not to abuse it and we are good
04: Your views on religion.
dont use it to harm others and we are good
05: A time you thought about ending your own life.
thought about it or considered it? cause i think about it alot but have only considered it once. the last time i thought
about it was a few days ago though
06: Write 30 interesting facts about yourself
30 seems like alot >< ill give you a few though
Im terrified of aliens and exoskeletons
Ive always felt like im two people at once
Im pretty smart but can be really dumb when in comes to common sense things ><
I dont regret a single thing in my life
I used to be very very shy
that seems like enough for now…
07: Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
aquarians are typically rather eccentric and lost in their own little worlds and are rather stubborn,
seems to fit perfectly
08: A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
probably when i was doing well in school and was happy with Zach. it couldnt get much better than that at the time
09: How you hope your future will be like.
i feel like i have answered this, i mostly just hope to do something with my life and live for some period of time
10: Discuss your first love and first kiss.
Michael- i cant recall exactly how it felt to fall in love with him. before I knew it i just couldnt imagine life
without him. and granted i had to spend a few years without him in my life and got along alright i am still very glad
he is back in my life :) my first kiss was at central academy with him, we were walking along the street
across from central and it was wonderful <3
11: Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
my ipod is across the world so ill pass for now ><
but im listening to poisonous friend by seabound
13: Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
Germany of course, ive been there a few times but i only grow to love it more and more
14: Your earliest memory.
this probably isnt the earliest but i remember playing barbies in a weird basement room with animals painted on the walls
15: Your favorite tumblrs.
Demisa and Liz are pretty good ^^
16: Your views on mainstream music.
some of its not too bad but i could take it or leave it most of the time
17: Your highs and lows of this past year.
highs: Michaels back in my life, i got a car, got kitties, got my own apartment finally
lows: did horrible in school, fucked up my relationship with Zach, got myself in a shit ton of debt, car died, etc.
18: Your beliefs.
about what? i have many beliefs, right now i believe that no belief is concrete
19: Disrespecting your parents.
you should always try to maintain some respect for your parents
20: How important you think education is.
its pretty important, not for everyone but for me its one of my main goals
21: One of your favorite shows.
22: How have you changed in the past 2 years?
I learned how to be happy, I learned to not let my depression control me, i learned patience and understanding
and i learned to forgive. Life doesnt always make things easy for you but there are always ways out and there are
always important things you can learn from them. Ive lightened up a bit and ive learned to be comfortable in my own skin
23: Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.
24: Your favorite movie and what it’s about.
Ive always said Storm of the Centrury is my favorite and im not sure why, a guy visits this small island town and
starts killing people and it turns out he is the Devil
25: Someone who fascinates you and why.
Most people fascinate me. humans are pretty interesting in general
26: What kind of person attracts you.
someone who is smart, attractive, has dreams of their own and someone who cares deeply about something i care
27: A problem that you have had.
fuck where to begin
28: Something that you miss.
I miss alot of people, i miss Germany, i miss warm summer days… that kind of stuff
29: Goals for the next 30 days.
Get and ID/permit and get a job
30: Your highs and lows of this month.
highs: I have both the people i love in my life
lows: probably going to be evicted and all the complications that come with loving two people
“When I first met you, I felt a kind of contradiction in you. You’re seeking something, but at the same time, you are running away for all you’re worth.”
— Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore